My Dailies 2007

APRIL

Monday, April 30, 2007

Today was another 9 hour work day in Hawaii. I'm painting the exterior of the apartment that I'm staying in right now. Then she wants the inside painted and new linoleum installed on the floors. And then I've got trim painting to do on their guest house which they are staying in because they haven't built the main house yet. And then I've got the garage floor to paint in the guest house too.

And I'm not sure I'm going to be able to get to everything by the time I have to leave.

Well,.. I'm stranded here again tonight. I was able to connect last night through Irene's dial up connection,.. but as soon as I got my daily loaded, AOL put an end to my connection. It's because I switched to their free AOL back when they said it was possible. I didn't have any reason to be paying for them and my broadband internet connection anymore until now.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Thee major problem in this world = A jealous God that has taken control of giving life here.

I thought I'd elaborate on that subject for a little bit as to the way that I've heard it.

A jealous God has mixed his oxygen in with our God's oxygen. So the moment that every life form here on earth takes their first breath of air,... we breath in the jealous God and he takes control of giving life to us.

So, our way of getting rid of him is: "To cause him to need himself out of us". Which I heard is the only way to do it. What the jealous God has done here causes "need". Not only in us,.. but in him too.

So this is how I think it works: "I've had to fast (go without food and liquids) to the point where I actually die,... but I don't die because our real God takes control of giving me life again and that causes the jealous God to take back control out of jealousy which causes him to have to try to be like our God.

Our God don't need at all,... and the way I've been seeing it is: "The jealous God has to force his self to be not needy too". Which in time is supposed to cause him to need him self out of me,.. and then out of this world too.

I remember the first time I learned about myself,.. and the first time I ever had to fast. It was all about "want, jealousy & need". It was wrong for me to be jealous,.. what causes jealousy?,... "want",... "Don't want for anything because you don't need for anything".

And back then I remember how I liked it, because I thought: "It's not like people think it is. It's not like I've gotta be a goody goody person like Jesus Christ was made out to be from what I've heard.

I was mostly thinking that part due to girls and sex. It wasn't that girls and sex was a wrong thing for me,... it was about something else. Because at the time I had a girl friend and was able to have sex.

I didn't get to have it very often, because my girl friend had sexual hang ups and wasn't like me about sex.

But it was always an OK thing for me to be doing. Not like it was wrong like it use to seem like some people might think.

It was the "want for it" that was wrong for me. Not the doing it. And "the want for it" is only wrong for me until the jealous God is gone from me.

Our God = the creator of our earth and us.

The jealous God = it doesn't matter who he/she is.

Today was another work day very similar to yesterday. It's been very windy here in Hawaii ever since I got here and can be somewhat annoying when working out doors.

Gene Hackmans name came to mind today a couple times and for no real reason that I know of. And it caused me to think,.. well,... I think I've liked every movie I've ever seen him in.

It's after 6:00 pm here in Hawaii right now and Irene just brought me a Mai Tai drink. It's tasting pretty strong. I remember that most people I've been around have always complained that bar tenders skimp on the alcohol at times,.. so I think that I'm one of the few that don't like it when the bar tender puts extra alcohol in my drink,.. because they don't taste as good to me when I taste too much alcohol.

Wow,.. this Mai Tai is really hitting me hard tonight,.. plus for some reason,.. my left ear is plugged up.

To my silent girl friend,... I'm stranded here in Hawaii right now,.. they forgot to register the truck I was driving,.. so I have no vehicle to go down to the internet hot spot I've been using to upload my dailies. They let me use their new Ford Explorer last night. But I don't expect them to offer it tonight,.. and it's not right for me to ask them. I may be able to upload this daily when Irene is finished trying to get my TV hooked up on satellite through her dial up internet connection,.. but I don't think I'll be able to upload the video that I made for you. I'll give them to you when I can though.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Topic - Why You?, why are you the one?.

My Dad asked me one day not that long ago,... "Why You?"

It was a time back when I was doing a lot of fasting. And I didn't have an answer for him. If I remember right,... I told him "I don't know".

But since then,.. I have had time to think about that subject and I thought I'd go ahead and jot some of those thoughts down here today.

What I think is: I wasn't chosen because of how I am or who I am. I was nothing but one of the sperms in my father when the choosing was being done.

I think that my parents were the chosen ones.

And I think it's based on all sorts of things like:

"The type of parents my parents would be",...

"choosing a time in this world where the people of the world will not kill the second coming".

"Choosing a place in this world where it appears most possible for a second coming to survive."

"Choosing the type of parents that are right for the type of child that a second coming will be."

Second Coming = second try at getting rid of thee major problem in this world. Not the second coming of Jesus Christ himself.

Thee major problem in this world = A jealous God that has taken control of giving life here. Not any of the people or other life forms in this world.

Well today was another OK work day in Hawaii,.. and right now I've gotta hurry and get finished with my dailies so that I can get down to the grocery store before they close. I got there right when they were closing last night,.. and it's looking like I'm close to being in the same boat tonight.

Friday, April 27, 2007

Hey,.. it's everybodies Friday today. I just noticed that,.. "yes,.. it is Friday".

Well although I woke up with and had some negative thoughts today,.. I had an OK work day. I masked windows and spray painted an overhang today. And did some brush work on some rain gutter down spouts.

It's a little after 5:00 pm here in Hawaii right now,.. and I got a bit oversprayed today,.. so I'm about ready to go have a shower,.. and then I'll go down the street and see if that wireless internet connection that I used yesterday is still available so that I can upload my dailies here.

I brought a wirless router to install for the people I'm working for here,.. but she needs to sign up for DSL before I can install it.

Irene, the woman that I'm working for here is a funny woman. She's always smiling and saying things that will make me laugh. She's like my parents age,.. near 70,.. and she has become a friend of mine,.. but she also likes to be motherly like. Like she wants to feed me and make sure I have enough towells and blankets and pillows and food.

Last night she said,.. "I'm going to follow you around while your here to see just what it is that you eat",.. "find out what your secret is to staying so skinny".

I told her my secret to staying skinny is not eating very much. She laughed and said,.. "I know"....

They have 35 acres here in Hawaii. And Irene is the one that likes to mow the lawn. She just got a new tractor. It looks like a top of the line large peice of construction equipment. And it's got windows all around it, has air conditioning, a stereo and a custom electronic seat that glides to all kinds of positions with the touch of a button.

She impress's me,.. and I like her too. And her husband Jim is cool too.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

I've made it to Hawaii now. I had a couple good drinks on the Aloha Airlines. It's called Amarula and it's made from a Marula fruit and imported from Africa. The taste is kind of like Irish Cream to me.

Then I had a good Mai Tai at a restaurant on our way to the place where I'm working,.. and now I've got a headache.

But I just finished unpacking and am about situated. Now I've gotta run down to the store and get some drinks and stuff and maybe upload my dailies here.

John Wayne Airport was pretty cool. I had no problems finding it and parking and the shuttle service to the airport was extra cool. The guy pulled right up to my truck and helped me load and unload when we got over to the airport.

Once we got to the airport in Kona, Hawaii,.. we stepped into goodie goodie world there. The guy I'm working for goes: "It could be worse,.. we could be in Aspen, Colorado where the whole town is goodie goodie world now". And that just gave me a bad attitude about this world again. And that's had me thinking negative ever since I heard it.

I've heard that a girl that I kind a know thought about buying a place there or maybe she already has. And I don't even care to step into that town. I don't care if I quit smoking or not. I don't care to go there if it's goodie goodie world. I like the world the way it use to be.

It causes me to think negative about me and her too.

And with my headache and negative thinking, I'm already not liking it here in Hawaii. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Hawaii wasn't too bad last time I was here.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Well it's about 6:00 pm now here at my house and I'm about packed and ready to go to Hawaii. I'll be flying out of John Wayne airport this time at about 8:45 tomorrow morning. And I'll be going to a little town called Hawi, which is about an hours drive from Kona on the big Island of Hawaii.

This morning I went and got payed from a job. Then I went over to BestBuy and got a wireless router to bring to Hawaii so that I can install it for the people I'm working for there. Then I went and looked at picture frames over at Aaron Brothers. And then I came home and finished a couple loads of laundry.

And I've just cooked a nice dinner for the cats,.. and now I've got some free time to write in my dailies here...

But,... but,..... but,...

but I've just ran out of things to say.

Well, I guess I'll put my dailies in for now,.. and maybe I'll think of something more to add later....

It's getting late now,... and I'm going to get up and leave early to get to the airport because I'm unfamiliar with where I'm parking and with the airport too. So I'm going to go to bed,.. and if everything goes well I'll be in Hawaii tomorrow evening.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing a Cher song called: "Believe".

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Today I had an OK work day. I was able to get this job I've been working on to the point where it's finished enough for now.

Today when I came home I started to sing a Cher song for video, but I'm too unfamiliar with parts of it right now,... so I'm going to have to practice it a bit before I can do it correctly.

I think that Barry Manilow duet that I talked about in yesterdays video,.. I think the song might be called: "Baby it's cold outside". And it was super cool the way him and some listener of KLOS radio sang that song. I thought so anyway.

Well,.. I've still gotta make up a bill for a job tonight and I've gotta start getting ready to go back to Hawaii.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Today I worked on installing shelves in a storage shed some more and installing doors and touch up painting on a family room ceiling.

It's starting to get like last time I went to Hawaii,... Like I've got all kinds of things to do before I go and I'm running out of time.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing a Barry Manilow song called: "Copacabana".

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Today I woke up out of bed with a whole bunch of negative thoughts. My teeth,.. I've had teeth I've felt like hiding for like 40 years now. My height. My problem life. And the way the world is changing. I think the world is going to change into a goodie goodie, strict world that I don't really like living in.

I've had thoughts this year where life had dragged me down so much that I just fall into a ditch on the side of the road and die.

My first 3 problems up above could go away some day. But the world changing into a place that I really don't like living in anymore may not go away. And that one still makes dieing someday sound like a good thing.

I've had a life where I just haven't felt free and comfortable to just be myself at times. I've heard Brad Pitt say that he thinks knowing how to fight is an important thing in life. Well I've thought that feeling free and comfortable to just be totally yourself around anybody is great way to be able to be for anybody and everybody.

I know that being afraid of my Dad when I was a kid was one reason that I couldn't feel free and comfortable around him.

And I know that if I ever have kids I will never cause them to be afraid of me.

Learning how to fight wouldn't of helped for me and my Dad,.. I was just a little kid compared to a full grown man.

But I also think that having a reason to be not afraid is a good thing too.

Well,.. today I worked for a half day out in Redlands, California. Got started on installing some new shelves to a storage shed.

Now that I'm home,.. I've got loads of laundry to do and I've still gotta update my Rixco web site and do some Online bill paying.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

It's Saturday, 5:30 pm here at my house now. I worked today out in Redlands,.. working on a storage shed that needs some finishing. And now that I'm home I'm just about finished with my office work here and about ready for a shower.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Today it was cold and rainy. I worked outside today under a canopy. But it was so cold that I should of wore thermals today.

Nice place that I'm working on. Their backyard overlooks the Redlands Golf Course. They just open their back gate and drive their golf cart right onto the course.

Well,.. it's 5:00 pm here now,.. and I'm about finished with my web site stuff now for today. Just gotta cook dinner for the cats and have my shower and I'll be about done for the day again.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Hey,.. I noticed in my AOL,... John Travolta is dressing up like a girl for something. Reminds me of the last time I did it. And with him,.. I thought he was a girl at first. I don't know,.. maybe it is possible to make my eyes look more girly along with the right kind of make up,....

hmmmm...

Well, let's see here,.. today I worked on some things at home for a while and then I went and started another job moving an overhang to a new spot. Then were going to add another overhang above the doors for looks.

Then I came home and made some videos,... and now I've gotta go cook dinner for the cats, then take a shower and my day will be about done.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Today I finished a job where I was doing some exterior trim painting, and I made a couple bills for jobs, and I sanded trim boards on another job, then I went and looked at a job that I'm going to be starting tomorrow installing trim.

Today I heard them say something about Larry King,.. I think he's got a TV show on CNN,.. but they were saying that he is 73 years old and he wants to just keep working.

Wow,.. that seems like a good way to be at that age. I'm 44 years old and that seems to be all I really do in life is work. Work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep, etc..

Retirement sounds good to me.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Today was a work day. I dropped off an estimate first thing this morning, then I went and painted trim on one job, then went to another job and sanded primed trim boards, and then I finished my day by getting more materials for a job.

Now that I'm home,.. I've fed the cats and had my shower,.. and I've been working on web site stuff,.. but I'm feeling like it's about time for bed for me.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Today after I got up out of bed and got dressed for work I got a bad headache. I usually just go to work anyway when I'm feeling a bit sick,.. but this time I had this queasy feeling along with a stuffed up nose and funny feeling in my throat,.. and I just felt like I better go back to bed.

So it's 3:00 pm here now,.. and I'm starting to feel a bit better. I just made me a bowl of phony chicken noodle soup. And it was actually really good. I put a little bit too much chicken style broth powder in it and it was a tad salty,.. but quite good other than that.

Man,.. I put some brownie batter in the oven a few hours ago,.. and got all busy with web site stuff,.. and forgot all about them being in the oven. Looks like the center of them may still be good,... the rest of it's burnt though.

I haven't found an alarm clock for in my computer yet. They had one for the Windows Vista side bar,.. but mine isn't working as an alarm clock.

I'm just going to have to bring my stove timer in here with me instead of leaving it on the oven next time.

Well,... it's about bed time for me,... and I'm feeling like I can go to work tomorrow.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Today I did a little grocery shopping, finished an estimate, did some cooking for the cats, and went shoe shopping.

While I was looking at all low heeled boys shoes,.. I glanced over at all the very tall heeled girls shoes and thought,... it's like they make shoes as if girls are generally shorter than boys. I don't think I can even get shoes that match up with some of those tall girls shoes. Like I'd either have to have some custom made or make some myself.

I've been going over to Payless Shoe Source for my shoes for the past 6 or 7 years not because I'm a cheapo when it comes to buying shoes,.. but because they are one of the only places I've found where I can get good looking shoes that look like they are leather but they are not leather. All man made material shoes. Today I noticed that K-Mart has some too,.. and I've seen some over at Target also.

I use to make it a point to buy only the leather shoes,... but,.. maybe it was actually 8 or 9 years ago that a memorable Thanksgiving time gave me thoughts that lead to me not buying leather anymore.

Well,.. I've still gotta cook dinner,.. and other than that,.. maybe I'll just kick back the rest of the day. That's what sounds good anyway.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Hey,.. Easter went by last weekend and I didn't even know that it was Easter. I found out yesterday when I was at some peoples house that had a couple rabbits in their house holding baskets. I said,.. "looks like it might be Easter this weekend",.. they said,... no,... it was last weekend.

Today I have a couple loads of laundry to do. And I have a couple estimates to work on. It's 1:30 in the afternoon here now, and I've been in the office pretty much all day so far.

Later I'm going to go out and have a dinner. I'm going to go out to Pomodoro Cucina Italiana again.

I'm going to go ahead and put my dailies in early today. And maybe I'll add to it later if I have anything more to say for today.

Well,.. I just got home from dinner. Dinner was good tonight. I had a bowl of Minestrone soup, garlic bread with arribiatta sauce and ravioli di zucca.

And now I'm feeling like I'm about ready for bed.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Today was a work day almost exactly like yesterday's. Except for today,.. I looked at a new little job this morning too.

I got home a little early today,.. so it's like I've got plenty of time here as I'm writing this out.

But I don't have plenty to say as of yet.

Well,.. I get to go out and eat a meal this weekend. Think I'm going to do it tomorrow night. This week my weight finally dropped down to 125 pounds. So it took some months for me to lose about 7 pounds by eating only one meal every 2 weeks. I'd say that I have what they might call the slowest metabolism in the world.

And I know,.. 125 pounds is like a girls weight,... I cant help it,... I'm a pretty short guy.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing a Ray Charles song called: "Hit the road Jack".

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Today I worked on a couple jobs. I sanded on some trim boards and picked up materials for one job,.. and I got started preparing a fascia board and post for painting on another job.

This morning I didn't feel like getting out of bed,.. so I'm thinking that I might go to bed early tonight.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing a song from The Knack called: "Good Girls Don't".

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

There was a cool interview on the radio today with Quinton Terrantino. He comes across in a good way,... a really likable person. I remember the scene in the movie Pulp Fiction that really had me on the edge of my seat,... but I don't remember the actor and actress's names. The scene I'm talking about is the one in a room with a guy and a girl,.. I think the girl was Nicholas Cage's girl friend,.. and another guy was making a move on her and she was getting into it like she was liking it.

If I remember right,.. I was thinking like,..."nooooooooooo"...

Today was just another work day like yesterday. And now that I'm home,.. I've got my cat cooking pretty much finished,.. I'm going to get in the shower pretty soon,.. and I've got some paper work to finish.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Today was just a normal work day. I worked on spraying primer on trim boards most the day. I've got over a mile of trim boards to prime.

I went to sing an Aerosmith song on video today,.. and I'm just not able to sing that style as well as I use to,... and I wasn't happy with what I came up with. I use to be able to sing in a screaming like style easier than any other style back in my first 24 years of life. Now it's just the opposite,... I can sing in a clean style easier than I can in a screaming style.

Monday, April 9, 2007

Today I stayed home and worked on a couple estimates,.. and I also worked on welding some handles back onto some file cabinet drawers,.. and got started on re-attaching some legs to a little window cabinet.

Now it's 5:30 pm here and my day is about done.

One of my favorite videos that I've made is,.. "The Beatles - Yesterday" that I did on April 2nd, 2007. A friend of mine use to sing that song when he was in a band,.. and I never thought of that song as one that I would do myself back then. But now after hearing myself do it,... it is one of the songs that I would sing now.

Sunday, April 8, 2007

Today after I woke up I got a bad headache and started feeling sick, so I went back to bed.

And now it's after 2:00 pm and I've still got a headache along with the same sick feelings,.. so I'm thinking that I'm going to be going back to bed here pretty soon.

My video from yesterday sounded like I did good as I was singing it. But after viewing the video,.. I don't like my Hoo Hoo Hoo's.

Saturday, April 7, 2007

It's Saturday around lunch time here now,.. and I've been sitting here on my computer ever since I woke up this morning.

I've did some online banking, payed my bills,... I've got a load of laundry in the dryer,.. and another load that needs to go into the washer. I've made a couple videos for today and have got them all uploaded and ready to put into my web site.

And now I think I'm going to go ahead and finish my dailies for today here,... because I've got lots of other things to do today too.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing a song from the movie Grease called: "Your the one that I want".

Friday, April 6, 2007

It's everybodies Friday night here right now, and I'm about ready for bed myself.

Today's work day was very similar to yesterday's,.. though one of the guy's that's working with me wanted to take us all out for lunch, so we all went out to Las Fuentes Mexican bar and grill. And lunch was good. I haven't had Mexican food in a while,.. and it's one of my very favorites.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Today I worked on spray priming some trim boards and ran around getting materials and stuff like that.

I'm not really up for singing tonight,... and I think I'm going to finish my chores and go to bed.

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Today was just another work day. I've been spray painting primer on trim boards for the past 3 days.

Then when I got home today,.. I'm all busy with this web site stuff today.

When I sang "Come Together" down below,.. I just went ahead and sang the next song on the karaoke disc too. It was my first time singing that song and I messed up on the beginning. I could make more videos and see if I can get it right,.. but I've got lots of other things to do too,.. so I'm just going to go with what I have this time.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video 1 - Me singing a Beatles song called: "I want to hold your hand".

Video 2 - Me singing a Beatles songs called: "Come Together & Help".

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Today was just another work day. Very similar to yesterday.

When I got home today,.. I went to sing a song called "I want to hold your hand" on video,.. and I made about 6 videos of it, but wasn't happy with the way I was sounding. After the last video I made finished, the karaoke disc moved to the song "Let it be",.. and I was sounding better with that song today,.. so I made an extra video for today.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video 1 - Me singing a Beatles song called: "A Hard Days Night".

Video 2 - Me singing a Beatles song called: "Let it be".

Monday, April 2, 2007

Today was just a normal work day. Had a bunch of color changes on the job today, so I had to re-order paints and run back and forth to the paint store, and it didn't seem like I got much done today because of it.

So when it comes to me singing,.. all my life I've been just attempting to sound like everybody else does when singing their songs. I've never really ever sang the Beatles song "Yesterday" before and don't have Paul McCartney's voice down.

So when I started singing it yesterday,.. I noticed that my voice was sounding pretty good with this song,.. and it's like I'm just now learning that I may have a singing voice of my own that I actually like.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing a Beatles song called: "Yesterday".

Sunday, April 1, 2007

Let's see here,... when I come into my office here,.. this computer stuff can just keep me busy all day long everytime I come in here. And that's how it's seemed today too,.. but I did do some other things today,... I've just gotta remember what they were.

Oh,.. well I've got a load of laundry in the dryer waiting for me to fold and put away. And I've been grocery shopping, and went over to Best Buy and checked out their karaoke CD's.

Oh,.. and I went over to Payless Shoes and got me some new work boots. And I've sat here and made a video. And packaged up some things to send to Hawaii,.. because I've got to go back there on April 26th, 2007 for some more work.

And now I've got a whole bunch of receipts to go through and to deduct from my checking account. I like keeping track of my checking account and banking in my GoldenSection Note pad on my computers.

Oh,.. on the subject of my city that I live in going around house to house and telling everyone they've got to do things to their house or else they will fine us money. I read the back of the tag that they gave me this morning... It says: "Working together to provide a safe and attractive community". But they are not working with us. They are being like a strict boss. Working together for me would be talking to us in an understanding way and being cool. That would be my way anyway.

I remember when my dad use to say: "GET OUT THERE AND MOW THAT LAWN NOW". And I didn't like that due to his tone and the way he said it. Then my mom would say it this way: "would you mind vacuuming the living room for me today?" .... Why can't Randy do it,... "because you do a better job". Oh,... alright. And I would usually always do things when my Mom asked me to. But hardly ever bothered when my dad told me to.