My Dailies 2007

MAY

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Today I worked on touch up painting exterior trim again on a job. Then I came home and did cat cooking and made videos.

And here it is after 8:00 pm here now and I'm still sitting here dealing with these videos. Web site stuff,.. making and uploading pages. I can be pretty fast at the web site stuff,... it's the videos that can take up a bunch of time,... especially when I'm not happy with them and have to make more,... ... ... and then even more sometimes.

Today's video 1 is a 2 take video. And Video 2 is a 3 take video.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video 1 - Me singing a Randy Newman song called "Short People"

Video 2 - Me singing a Jimmy Buffett song called "Margaritaville"

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Today I looked at a new job then went and painted exterior trim on a house that I've been working on lately.

And now that I'm home I've still gotta cook dinner and then I think I'm gonna go to bed.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing the Eagles "Heartache Tonight"

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Oops,... I was just on my way to bed when I looked over at the screen on my left and saw that I haven't finished my dailies for today yet... I almost forgot.

Playing with this music stuff is really taking up some extra time here for me.

Well,.. it was just a normal work day today. I spray painted exterior fences and a block wall then did some touch up trim painting on a house. Then I came home and mixed my home chores with making music and videos.

And now it's going on 11:00 pm, so I'm going to get to bed.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video 1 - Me singing a Barry Manilo song called "I write the songs".

Video 2 - Me singing a song called "New York New York"

Monday, May 28, 2007

Today I woke up early and went down to the Guitar Center because they were having a Memorial Day sale. I went down there to check out a Fender Passport Deluxe Portable PA system. But ended up coming home with a Behringer PMH2000 PA and a couple Yamaha BR15 speakers.

It's pretty cool. It has a bunch of effects built into it too. And I like the sound of it with my accoustic guitar better than the sound that my accoustic guitar gets from my guitar amp.

So,... playing with my new amp and making videos has taken up my whole day today...

It's after 7:30 pm here now in California and I've still gotta go in and cook dinner.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video 1 - Me singing a song called "Mack The Knife".

Video 2 - Me singing a song called "Mack The Knife" (a little higher pitched version)

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Today I slept in a bit. Then woke up and got started fixing web pages for my web sites. Along with seeing if I can figure out why this new Microsoft Expression Web software doesn't appear to be working correctly. Cant attach a style sheet to my pages and then move styles from the pages to the style sheets like your supposed to be able to do.

I'll probably figure it out eventually.

Then I made another batch of Irene's salsa,... and got it right this time. What I did this time that made a difference was,.. I added serrano peppers to the mix,... and put most of the seeds from the jalapenos into the salsa too.

And I've been finishing my laundry all day. I've still got a load of towells in the dryer to finish.

It's 8:30 pm here now in California,.. and I'll probably just finish my evening with fixing web pages and folding my laundry.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Let's see here,.. today I started out waking up all stiff and sore then after I woke up a bit I started fixing some of my web pages with Microsoft Expression Web software.

Then later today I decided to go down to BestBuy and purchase that software (Microsoft Expression Web). I was just trying out the trial version before.

And I went down and did a little grocery shopping and went out checking stores for large mixing bowls. Just wasn't seeing any that I really liked. I checked about 5 different stores then finally settled on a Martha Stewart bowl from K-Mart.

And now I've been sitting here watching the video tutorials that came with Microsoft Expression Web software, but I've got other chores that I've gotta get to, so I'm going to have to get to them and watch these tutorials later.

Friday, May 25, 2007

Well today,.. now that I'm home from work,... I'm feeling all sore and run down,.. and sunburned too.

I got a good work out today. I was moving railroad ties around all day and notching them with saws for landscaping.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Today I worked on painting a fence. Then I came home to cat cooking day. Had to cook up a big pot of food for the cats.

And now the day is already about over. Done.

I've had a slight head ache ever since I got home,.. so I think I'm gonna go to bed early.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

So it sounds like there may be a new law out in California about driving with cell phones. Like,.. no driving while talking on cell phones.

I'm a person that it don't affect that much really,.. because I don't use my cell phone that often. I have used it while driving though,... and I have even pulled over to use it because it was just easier to dial that way.

But what I think of this law is: maybe it would be better if you don't ruin it for every body just because a few people have a problem with it.

Hold the people that have a problem with it accountable instead of ruining it for everybody.

I've never even seen a person having a problem driving due to a cell phone. I've seen people driving while talking on the cell phone that didn't appear to have a driving problem though.

Also,... I heard on the radio that a guy named Kevin Bacon was interested in doing a pictorial in PlayGirl magazine, but they told him he is too old.

On this deal I think that the magazine is somebody else's and that it's up to them how they choose to do things in their magazine. But I can say what I think.

I think that if older women are allowed to do pictorials then older men ought to be able to too.

This reminds me of a time a few years back when a very popular singer (my God related girl), was doing a video shoot in Long Beach, California and was asking for a whole bunch of people to be in the video,..

But,.. people my age were "not included".

Today was an OK work day. I water blasted and got a fence prepared for painting.

Last night I found out that my web sites have some coding that is possibly going to no longer exist in the future. So ever since then I've been figuring out just what the new ways of coding are going to be so that I can fix it.

I've found this software called "Microsoft Expression Web" that looks like it's going to teach me a few things about building web sites.

I'm trying out their trial version right now.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Today I had a short work day. And now I'm sitting around with what seems like nothing to do.

I came home and had me a couple of those Morningstar sausage patties along with my salsa. I didn't really notice those sausage patties the first time I tried them. But they gave me some while I was in Hawaii,.. and those things can taste like real sausage patties. They taste especially good to me along with Irene's salsa.

Well,.. I've still gotta cook dinner. And I've gotta go pick up a waterblaster for work tomorrow. And since I didn't feel like getting up out of bed this morning,.. I've been thinking that maybe I'll go to bed early tonight too.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Today I had a good full work day. I masked off and spray primed new walls in a house that's getting it's upper floor remodeled.

The salsa that I made yesterday taste's quite hot today. It's like the heat from the chipotle peppers evened itself out throughout the salsa over night. Taste's hot as soon as you put it into your mouth. It's not the same flavor as the first batch of Irene's salsa that I made though. This one has a flavor that's coming more from the chipotle peppers.

Kind of smokey, barbecue like, maybe like a southwestern style salsa.

Well,. I've got all my chores done now and I'm about ready for bed.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

For a day that started out at 10:00 am with me thinking,.. "it looks like I've got some extra time today,.. I think I'll go and get the ingredients to make some more of Irene's salsa again",.. this turned out to be a very busy day.

So I made another batch of salsa today and I got my jalapeños from the place that had the hot jalapeños from the first batch of Irene's salsa that I made. But again,.. the jalapeños were not hot. This time I threw in a bunch of cayenne pepper and a can of chipotle peppers and got it tasting pretty good though.

It's just not the same as that first batch of salsa that I made though. So next time I'm going to mix jalapeños with those smaller green hot chile's. I can't remember what they're called right now.

Today I've done a couple loads of laundry,.. I've just finished cooking dinner,.. I've been down to BedBath&Beyond and got us a new blender. Ours just went out. I cooked salsa.

And now I've got some calls to make about work,... and then I'm about done for today.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

I don't know yet.... I'm busy making another batch of Irene's salsa right now...

Well,.. I used 24 jalapeños this time that are not hot. My salsa turned out like a mild salsa this time. Last batch was just like Irene's,.. quite hot,... but not so awful hot that it's annoying to eat. I'm gonna run down to Stater Brothers grocery store and get some hot chili powder to add to this batch.

Well now,... that's not such a quick jaunt down to the store when you forget to bring your F'n wallet.

They didn't have any hot chili powder like I was there to get, so I ended up getting a bunch of Habenero Peppers. I put 4 of them in the salsa, and now the salsa seems mild at first,.. and then a lingering hot comes on upon ya. It's been burning my lips for 10 minutes now.

Maybe by tomorrow the heat will be more of a "throughout the salsa" kind of thing. Because that's one of the things about Irene's salsa,.. it has a hotness about it that you taste the moment you put it into your mouth.

At this time I think it's much better to just start out with hot jalapeños. I did use the food processor instead of the blender this time though,.. and my salsa is chopped up correctly this time.

Today,.. besides spending hours making a salsa that I may just throw out. I also painted my new chain link fence that I just had put out on the front of my house. Painted it a dark green.

And now I've just finished cooking dinner for everybody,.. and I'm about done for today.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Today I had lots of negative thoughts going on in my mind. My life and this world.

Anyway,.. so I made a couple videos that I was thinking of putting in here but I'm not happy with them. So I deleted them. I'm not so sure that I like "my voice" when singing the Eagles songs. I don't know,.. but I think I sound better doing Glen Frey's parts than I do singing Don Henley's. I'm not able to copy their voices now days. I use to sing along with them back when I was younger, but I don't remember if I was ever able to sound like any of them.

Today I got another late start getting to work. And just did a little puttying and painting today. Then I went and payed for my new front fence.

It's cat cooking day,.. so I'm in the process of cooking a big pot of food for them right now,... and I'm thinking about going down to Bakers Square restaurant and getting a pie for my Uncle Scott's birthday tomorrow.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Today I got a little bit of a late start. I didn't feel like getting up out of bed again this morning. I've been feeling a bit sickly like ever since I got home from Hawaii.

So today I went and did some touch up painting on a house. Then I came home to meet a guy that was going to give me an estimate on a new fence for my back yard, but he never showed up. Guess I'm going to have to call them and remind them.

It's 5:00 pm here right now in California,.. and I think I'm going to go have a shower here in a little bit,... and then I've gotta cook dinner for the cats.

I've got another song that I think I can sing,.. I don't know if I'm going to get to it tonight or not yet.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Today I had a short work day. But the time has just flew by here as it's getting late,... and it doesn't seem like I had any extra time due to a short work day.

Let's see,.. besides that I've finished cooking dinner and showered, and went to Target and got a bow for a present. It's my Uncle Scott's 80th birthday this weekend. He's the Uncle the lives with me.

And I went over to BestBuy and got an Elvis Presley CD. Oh,.. and went over to Aaron Brothers and got a couple picture frames too.

And I guess that's it,.. I'm not coming up with anything more to say here today.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Today was just another work day.

I installed a window today, and finished installing some door trim and installed a couple bathroom mirrors.

The freeway was backed up on my drive home today. It was because a large dirt mover on top of a trailer was too tall to make it under one of the over ramps and he got wedged under it. That's the first time I've seen that happen.

Well, I've still gotta cook dinner for the cats,.. then I think I'm going to go to bed.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Today was a running around to a bunch of different jobs type of day. Then I came home and finished an estimate, worked on my web site a little bit and accepted an estimate to have a fence put in on the front of my house.

And now that my chores are all finished I'm ready for bed. So I think that's what I'm going to go do.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Today was just a kick back Sunday. It doesn't seem like I really did much of anything today.

Let's see here,.. I made a few videos,.. I worked on my web site,.. I cooked dinner for the cats, and I fixed the light in the kitchen. Seemed like the ballast was going out on my kitchen ceiling light,.. but it turned out to just be the bulbs...

Seems like that's about all I did today. And now it's about bed time,... so I've gotta start figuring out what jobs I'm going to be getting back to now that I'm home from Hawaii.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me singing a Ricky Martin song called "Livin La Vida Loca"

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Hey,.. I was able to copy Irene's salsa. I got the flavor right anyway. And I got mine blended a bit smoother than hers was. But it's good,.. and I've just got me a new salsa recipe.

Well today was kind of a kick back Saturday. I've made some videos, payed some more bills, finished my laundry, cooked dinner for the cats, finished making Irene's salsa,.. and I think that's about all I did today.

I've been feeling a bit queasy and sick like the past couple days.

Friday, May 11, 2007

Every bodies weekend is about here. Another Friday night and I think I'm going to go and do a little grocery shopping and get the ingredients to try to copy Irene's salsa. Most every thing I ate while I was in Hawaii this time was along with Irene's salsa.

Sometimes it seems like I'm a bit like Martha Stewart when I do things.

Well today I've been doing laundry and cooking for the cats and computer stuff. It's like I'm having to get all situated now that I'm back home.

"Had to remove these videos. New server doesn't allow any room for videos."

Video - Me attempting to sing a couple AC-DC songs.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Today I've been in my office all day so far. It's after 4:00 pm here already.

I've got a bunch of things done though,.. and that's good.

All my bills are paid now. Last time I went to Hawaii, some bills came on the day that I left to go over there and I ended up being late in paying them. This time it looks like I've been able to avoid that.

Well,.. I've still gotta go to the bank and make a deposit, and I've still gotta unpack my suit cases. And then I've gotta do some laundry.

Seemed like it took some extra time to get woken up this morning.

Man,.. I tried out Windows brief case for the first time when I went to Hawaii. And only computer savvy people may know what I'm talking about here,.. but when I went to put my brief case back onto my desktop computer it treated every file as if it was an orphan file so I couldn't use the briefcase to update my files like your supposed to be able to. All the new files that I made when I was in Hawaii had to be all copied individually back to my desktop computer.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Today I'm writing out my dailies from Aloha airlines. From the clock on my computer, . . it looks like its 6:30 pm California time. So, I think I've got about 2-1/2 hours left until we get to John Wayne airport.

Thought I better write out my dailies now, because it's going to be late when I get home.

Think I'm going to finish them when I get home though, because I'm feeling like going to sleep right now.

Well I finally made it home. Made it home by 10:30 pm California time. And I'm just going to get my dailies loaded here so that I can go to bed.

I was thinking of "highlights of my trip" on the way home,.. and really didn't think of anything much. "The bed that I got to sleep on this time seemed more comfortable than my bed here at home",.. and "I found out the Mexican food place down the street,.. think it's called Hula la's,.. I found out they make good black beans." I tried their re-fried pinto beans last time I was there and they tasted to me like canned beans,.. which I like sometimes,.. but their black beans taste more worth going back again for.

Seems like that's the highlights of my trip there.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Today was a long work day for me. A 12 hour day...

Just running out of time and I've still got so many things left to do.

Tomorrow I'll being flying home on Aloha airlines at around 12:30 in the afternoon. Sure seemed extra windy here in Hawaii this time.

Monday, May 7, 2007

I thought of a line for Jamie Fox that could be added to an episode of his show as if I was there dressed up like a girl along with him.

When I'm spewing out my,.. "nah,... I'm a girl kind of girl,... no peckers for me thank you"... She/he could probably come up with a funny way to come out with,.. "and no pussies either"...

Well today was just another work day in Hawaii. I finished installing linoleum flooring today and did a little baseboard painting in the Guest house.

Tonight I'm waiting to see if Irene's DSL internet connection has been turned on yet. They told me on the phone that it may take til after 6:00 pm for them to have it turned on.

And I'm thinking that I'm probably going to have to go back down to the Internet hot spot I've been using to upload my dailies again.

Sunday, May 6, 2007

A little something about drinking alcohol and me. I remember a long time ago my Mom told me,... "I'm surprised that you drink alcohol knowing how your Dad gets". I didn't have a reply,.. and didn't think about it at the time... But there was one thing that alcohol did for me. It allowed me to act just silly enough to where I was OK with diving in unannounced to kiss a girl.

It always happened when we were in the front or back seat of a car talking,.. and all I was thinking about was kissing her. And I would dive in for a kiss at some point,.. and the girls I was with always allowed it. Maybe they had kissing in the back of their mind too.

I know there was 2 times in my life when there was no alcohol involved and me and a girl are both thinking about kissing each other as we just keep on talking and both times,.. the girl actually faced me looking into my eyes and started moving in for a kiss. And both times we didn't end up kissing because the look on our faces wasn't right. Both girls came in for a kiss matching the look on my face,... which wasn't a smile,... it was a serious like look.

So when both girls looked into my eyes all serious looking and started moving in I wasn't sure what they were getting at as it was happening and it caused me to move backwards as they were moving in. It was afterwords where I thought both times that they were thinking about kissing me too. And both times I just didn't know how to go about kissing them. So nothing ever happened.

I found out later in life that my problem with that always was,.. "It was wrong for me to have a facial expression laced with want". I could never show a girl that I wanted to kiss her with the look on my face.

I remember 3 times where I just came out and asked the girl if I could kiss her. 2 times they just smiled at me,.. and I wasn't sure what that meant,.. so I ended up walking away without a kiss. Then the third time when another girl smiled at me after I asked her if I could kiss her, I decided to move in and kiss her. And found out that she was OK with it.

Now days and for the past 20 years,... it has been wrong for me to even have an interest in kissing a girl. Wrong to have even the thoughts of "wanting to kiss a girl". Like my whole first part of life I was being prepped for what was to come later in life.

It was never wrong to be kissing a girl. But like it was always wrong for me "to want to kiss a girl". I remember the first girl I ever kissed,.. it was back when I was a little kid,.. and the way we got around to that first kiss was I talked about it. Think it was something like,.. "hey,.. I know,... lets kiss". And she went along with it and we kissed for seemed like hours. And next thing ya know her Mom is taking us all to Taco Bell,.. one of my favorites,... but me and her are in the back of the truck in the camper shell still kissing. And then were kissing all the way over to Taco Bell too.

Kissing her was one of the greatest things in the world at that time for me.

So now my thinking is going towards the thoughts I've had about going to Mexico to go to the topless or nude bars there. It's as if some people may of thought that was "a want".

But no,.. it wasn't a want. If I had a want towards that I would of had to fast again. Because anytime I want for something it causes me to be like the jealous God and it causes him to take back full control of giving me life again. Then in order to put things back to where the jealous God is in a needy stand point I have to fast to the point where I would actually die, but our God takes control of giving me life again causing the jealous God to take back control out of jealousy,.. which causes the jealous God to have to be like our real God,.. "our God don't need,.. so the jealous God has got to be that way to".

But he really does need, therefore,.. in time he is supposed to need himself out of me and then out of this world too.

So no,.. I haven't had a want to go Mexico for girls. It was something that sounded like something I would like. And it also sounded like possibly the only way that I would end up with a girl along with the way that my life is now. Which use to be something that I use to like in life. "Being close with a girl".

The last time I "had to fast",.. was caused by me "trying to see something". "Trying to do anything for me can end being "a want". So what happened was,.. for a long time,. it had been like,.. I look up at the stars in the sky,.. and the one I'm looking at would flash me in a red light.

I've thought that I might of caused it,.. because one day I was thinking how I don't understand why all the stars have the same color of light out there. Then next thing ya know I'm seeing some different color lights out there. One time I thought about the color green after seeing the red out there,... and days later there was green flashes of some kind out in space and I wasn't the only one seeing it. Somebody I was with pointed it out to me.

So anyway,... back to why I had to fast that last time... I was looking up at a star when all of a sudden my vision moved forward like and a planet that looked like a moon was visible all of a sudden. I was able to see a little planet next to the one I was looking at all of a sudden.

So then I'm looking at an orange looking star,... when all of a sudden my vision moved forward like again,... and now I see like a moon next to him too.

So next thing ya know,.. I'm looking at more stars to see if I can see their moons too,.. and in my trying to see,.. the jealous God took back control of me.

I know that some of the stuff I say can come across like far fetched, maybe even ridiculous sounding stuff. And I've had thoughts like,.. "nobody even needs to know any of this stuff",.. like nobody even needs to know that I'm the one doing this stuff. Like it can all happen and be done with and nobody even knew that it had to do with me.

But recently I thought that maybe it is good for people to hear some of this stuff I'm saying because if their has to be a 3rd Coming,.. and even a 4th Coming,.. Those Comings should all be saying and doing the same type stuff that I am. "The fasting, the reasons for it,.. and the want, jealousy and need part".

Thinking of the planets,... back when I thought I may of met our universe itself in my mind,.. I was talking to the jealous God,.. and it got allowed for him to talk to me by our God talking,.. at one point I heard "nobody knows where he's from". And I thought about how maybe if his parents knew what he did here,.. that they could maybe talk to him about it,.. maybe it could help.

And it was like that day,.. something I said in my mind caused every body to learn where our jealous God came from,.. "which galaxy".

And I think it was months later,.. and I think his name is Dr. George Fishback from the television news,... I think he did weather,.. but anyway,... one day on the news,.. he goes,.. "2 new planets just showed up in our galaxy"...

And of course,.. I thought,.. "that just may be his parents"...

I've had thoughts that led me to believe that not even our universe itself can do much around here for us because of the jealous God being in us and because of what the jealous God may do out of jealousy or for what ever reason he has.

Snakes that look like they were designed to kill things could of came from the jealous God here. And those snakes can't help it,.. it's not their fault that they have that type of body style.

"It's not a poisonous snakes fault that they have the type of body style that will kill things".. "Just like You can't help it that you have the type of body style that you have"..

And I could imagine that especially snakes with long teeth with holes in them that shoot poison into things will not have that type of body style anymore if the jealous God here ends up gone from here. Possibly a simple painless process for our God to do,... just like I've thought my teeth might be.

Plus I've thought that I stand more of a chance of being totally happy with them if he doe's them.

One thing that I've thought about going to the dentist is,.. "I'm not going to let them put another buck tooth in my mouth next to the one I have." Might as well forget about it if I'm just going to end up with buck teeth that I don't like again.

Actually I've thought that it may not be just my teeth that are the problem. I've also thought that my upper gums may hang down lower than I like. Because it seems like even with smaller teeth,.. their still going to be showing. As if I still can't help showing the things.

The first time I heard that our God will be able to fix my teeth,.. I didn't trust it as real. But the second time I heard it,.. he made it a point to tell me that it's real. So maybe letting our God fix my teeth isn't such a bad thing. Like it could be part of showing everybody that there really is a God here.

I know that my teeth could be a good reason that no girl will be interested in me,... and I don't blame them for that too...

Oh well,.. that's life for me,..

It hasn't been a good life being me... Especially in the last 20 years of it. I really never had those thoughts in my first 24 years of life.

You know,... I think I've had teeth I've felt like hiding ever since my permanent teeth came into my mouth.

One thing about it though,... I think it's kept me more towards the serious side of life,.. because I've been uninterested in smiling for about 40 years now.

Oh,.. by the way,... I really don't think there is anything to fear from our creator and real God. Personally I've been thinking that he will be able to create those meats that lots of people prefer to eat.

Saturday, May 5, 2007

Well I'm sitting here on my porch in Hawaii on a beautiful evening, Jim & Irene are out on the horizon over looking the ocean with their Mai Tai's.

I've got my Mai Tai here too,.. but I can't put the umbrella in it because the wind here blows it off my drink.

I didn't think of anything new to say here in my dailies today. I thought about going out to dinner tonight over at the Bamboo restaurant,.. but I decided to just have some of these MorningStar sausage patties along with Irene's salsa.

Today I painted trim in the apartment that I'm working on and got started with getting the floors ready to install linoleum.

Irene got her DSL yesterday. But they haven't turned it on down at the station yet. Not til Monday. So I've gotta drive down next to the Bamboo restaurant to get an internet connection so that I can upload my dailies for today.

Friday, May 4, 2007

Ok,.. a possible episode for the Jamie Fox show. Now I don't remember what his name was when he dressed up like a girl,.. so I'm going to call him Jamie for his parts. Jamie and his girl friend which could be me at this point, enter a club where there's a bar and dancing.

They sit down at a table. We sit down and were talking about I don't know what. But at one point I notice a girl that I've met standing over at the bar getting a drink. We can't see her face though. I say to Jamie,... Oh,... you've gotta come and meet Stacey,.. come on,... So we go over to meet Stacey standing at the bar and when she turns and faces us, she's got that mouth thing going like Jamie does. Like she has the same look on her face that Jamie does.

Here,.. I'm not sure Jamie needs any kind of reaction. Just Jamie and the girl facing each other with the same look on their face may be funny enough,... I don't know.

So we all meet and I invite her over to our table and she comes and sits with us. At some point Stacey breaks out a picture of her boyfriend to show me and he has got the same look on his face too,... and it reminds me of a dating web site that I saw. So I tell Jamie,... Oh Jamie,... you've gotta come and see this web site,... it's your kind of site,... "no ugly guys"....

So me and Jamie go over to my place and we get onto the computer and go to MenForTheUniqueWoman.com. Every guy on this site has pictures and a profile to look at. And every guy on this site has got the same mouth thing going,... the same look on their face that Jamie does.

I thought one of the guys in there that we land on could be Jamie Fox himself as a man,... and maybe Jamie the girl kind of likes that one,... (like wait a minute,... go back to that one guy)... I won't be able to be one of the guys myself because I won't be able to show my teeth like that.

Anyway,.. the girls look at all the potential guys for Jamie and then decide to leave and go back to the bar. On their way back to the club,.. they see this place called facial expression coaching and they decide to peek into the window to see whats going on,... where they see me as myself,... (not as a girl),.. sitting in a chair being coached on how to smile correctly.

I thought the obvious choice to play the roll of the facial expression coach could be Jim Carey,... but I also think that Greg Kaneer would be able to do it well because he can be so emotional when he speaks,... like his emotions are written all over his face.

Anyway,.. so the girls see me and the coach making funny faces all seriously, then they bust up laughing and are off back to the club. And that's as far as I've got so far...

We seem like quite a pair,... Jamie's the "no ugly guys" for him kind of girl,... and I'm the "no peckers for me" kind of girl...

Here's a part that could be added to this episode. After Jamie's finished looking at all the guys on MenForUniqueWomen.com,.. Jamie turns the tables around and mentions a great site for me to check out. So he types in AtouchofChiffon.com where of course it's a web site full of girls that look like me. (Men dressed up like girls).

And here again I thought one of the girls could be Jamie dressed up like a girl but looking like a different girl than the one he is in the room.

And when we get to him I could say something like,... "that one's kind of cute". And maybe we look at each other,.... laugh,.. then head out for the facial expression coaching place.

Oh,.. here's another part that crossed my mind... The club that we are originally at,.. it's a place where they have live music. So when we get back to the club after seeing the facial expression coaching place,.. we sit down,... and at some point the girl that's on stage (which is me dressed up like a different girl),.. and I start singing,.. "sometimes it's hard to be a woman,.. givin all your love to just one man,... but if you love him,.. oh be proud of him,.. cuz after all he's just a man,.... Stand by your man,.."

And that gives me and Jamie something to laugh about again...

So this morning I've been thinking about how "I'm not sure that I would be able to come out with phoney laughter as an actor". I'm thinking it's like I'm against doing that... I don't know,... maybe it would seem more OK if I came up with some special laugh for the occasion. Phoney laughing makes me think of how I felt the last time I was at a topless bar when I found myself half ass smiling more often than I normally would,... and it didn't feel right on my face.

Also I was thinking about how there's one movie out there that I seen not to long ago where the picture on the cover of the DVD made me laugh more than the movie did.

And I've been thinking how from what I've seen of the Ray Ramano Show,.. they don't need no help with the writing of their show. And the Simpson's,... I've thought the same thing about their show.

One scene that made me crack up from the Simpson's was when this kid that likes Lisa, (Bart's Sister)... He's walking with Lisa to school,... and all of a sudden he comes out with,.. "My Mom told me I wouldn't get so many nose bleeds if I'd keep my finger out of there"....

Oh,.. I just remembered a part for me as a girl. I'm,... kind of like Kevin Kline said it in A Fish Called Wanda,... "Don't call me a Diva",... "I am not a Diva"...

Because there's something about the word Diva that I'm not sure I like. And I think it's kind of like this,... "Goldie Hahn came across as a Diva to me in the movie Overboard in one of the beginning scenes where Kurt Russel was sitting on the edge of her bed eating his lunch at break time and she was bending over looking for something in a night stand next to the bed".

Actually,.. in thinking about it now,.. maybe it was that whole character she was playing up until she fell overboard.

I thought of a funny to me line for Will Ferrel and Brian Phelps as President Bush the other day... It goes like this,.. The President is sitting at his desk in his office and a guy comes in the door and hands him a memo. The President thinks out loud as he's reading it,... "Hillary is running for President",... then says,.. you now what,... what the hell,... I think I'll have my wife run too,... I've got unfinished business here.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

Coming off of yesterday's daily,.. about making a movie or television series about my life. I was thinking that Robert Dinero could play that Preachers part well. But maybe he ought to dress up a certain way so that he can play other rolls too. Because the Preachers part was a very small part,.. and because Robert Dinero looks enough like my Dad to play his part.

By the way,... in the movie Meet the Parents,... that was the first time I ever heard that the song Puff the Magic Dragon was about something else too. I remember singing that song after the very first time I heard it back when I was a kid.

So In order to do my Dad's drunk parts he would have to take on more of Ray Liotta thing like when he was in the movie Good Fella's. That laugh that Ray Liotta had was good. Then you might have to be a bit on the crazy side too a little like Joe Peshe because he could be like "you never know what he might do". Tough guy,.. ready to get in your face at the drop of a hat. Tough guy and crazy like when he was drunk.

Oh,.. and of course the Dad on the Wonder Years may be able to do my Dad just fine too. He had my Dad's normal not drunk side down a lot like he was my Dad.

So then I was thinking how me and Superman from Smallville would be able to play the parts of me and Mike at Sunday school. Because Superman from Smallville looks a bit like Mike.

Of course,... were too big and old for the parts now though. That scene happened back when I was maybe 10 years old. And I'm not sure how old Mike was,.. but I always thought that he was only a year or 2 older than me if that.

A lot of the stuff I've been thinking about lately should be going in My Biography pages. But when I think about getting started and writing in there again,.. it seems like I hardly have any extra time to do it. Here in Hawaii I've been busy up until time to go to bed every day since I've got here. It's just like being at home.

Today I was thinking how I'm like a lot of Steve Martin's characters that he's played. In the movie The Jerk,.. I'm a guy that's invented and made things that could possibly be turned into something big, and I like those umbrellas in my drinks too.

In the movie Roxanne,... I'm like him when he was up on the roof talking to the kid (his negative thoughts concerning girls),.. and any time he was thinking negative about some girl actually liking him.

In the movie Pink Panther Strikes Again,.. (not sure if that's the correct title),.. but anyway,.. I'm him when he's always saying yes to the girl. "Oh,.. yes,.. of course You can do that".

And there may be more times too that I don't remember right now,.. let's see,.. I know I'm a little like his character in I think it may of been called LA Story when he notices the girl in the grocery store in the vegetable isle. I notice her too,.. but I don't say anything like he did though.

Then in the movie Dirty Rotten Scoundrels,... I can't think of a part in there where I'm like him,.. but I liked that movie and to me it was like Michael Canes laughs didn't look like acting,... they looked more like he was really laughing at Steve. And it looked like he was having fun with making that movie.

Oh yeah,... I'm a bit like this too, from the movie The Pink Panther Returns,.. "nope,.. no girls for me,.. I have internet"...

Well,... Irene just told me how to make her salsa. I offered to buy the recipe from her last time I was here. She laughed and said,.. "you can't buy it,.. it's not written down". But now with what she's told me,.. I think I may be able to copy it sometime when I get home.

Irene makes really good salsa,.. and every time I run out she brings me more. It taste to me pretty much just like those meatless looking Hamburgers did to Inspector Cluso and his partner in the last Pink Panther movie.

I think I'm going to have me a Mai Tai tonight. Earlier today I went down and bought all the ingredients for it. I even have a little umbrella to sit on top of it because I saved mine from the restaurant that we stopped at when we first got here to Hawaii.

Me and acting. I remember back when I was around 21 years old and one Halloween I dressed up like a witch then tried to act like one when I answered the door once. The kid and Mom liked it,.. but I sure didn't. It was like,.. "I can't act"...

I know that I can be myself though. And besides that,.. there is one thing that I've thought that I may have the ability to do for movies. "I think I may be able to take a scene that isn't necessarily that funny,.. and make it funny". I've been able to do it in my mind anyway.

Oh,.. and I've also came up with some scenes that sounded funny to me for me and Jamie Fox to do dressed up like girls. Maybe one day I'll jot them down here if I can remember them.

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Sometimes when I write about God I say "he/she" or just he... The truth is,.. I may not know what they really are,.. but I've been thinking that they are all neutral. Neither male or female. But all the same.

I've heard that they are all like big blobs of oxygen and the original or very first life form there ever was,.. is our universe itself.

So speaking of creating someone in their own image,.. I think that is quite possibly just what the universe did when he created his/her very first life form.

When it comes to us,.. I've been thinking that the idea of putting life forms on the planets may of been around for lots of years. And then one day someone actually did it. Here,.. our earth and us. Maybe there are others similar to us somewhere in another galaxy,... I don't know.

But to me,... the planets out there are just like decorations without making it into something like we have here. Like they are all blobs of oxygen along with their creations that they've built.

Now,.. I can't say that I know for a fact that our God and the others and the universe itself are what I'm saying they are. But I can say this,.. I like the thought of all this being true because it is all stuff that is real to me. All things that I can actually see. I did have one time where it seemed like I met a third member in my brain which came across as the universe itself but that's another story.

Today I had a few thoughts about if a movie was made about my life. I thought,... like if it was going to be done now days,.. maybe it ought to be like a television series type thing because my life is still on going. Then I thought,.. maybe I ought to just play my part myself. Because I know exactly how to do it.

I have a starting point that I thought is a good place to start a movie or series about my life. The woman that told me when I was a little kid one day that "your going to have a lot of girl friends" and my Mom are talking in the kitchen. The woman is talking like maybe you guys should try Church. And my Mom is talking about how she's going to let us decide for ourselves whether or not we would like to go to Church someday.

But my Mom decides to let me go and try it with the woman's son. It was Sunday school like setting. A preacher sat at one of the narrow ends of a long table and a whole bunch of kids sat around the table to listen to him read. Me and the woman's son sat across from each other about 6 or 7 feet away from the preacher. The woman's son,.. Mike is his name,.. and he had a rubber band with him.

He was stretching the rubber band as I watched, then he stretched the rubber band out on his finger and shot it right at the preachers face and hit him. The preacher just kept on reading as I couldn't help but snicker about it. Then Mike got up out of his chair looking all serious, went and got his rubber band, came back and sat down and did the same thing again. Shot the rubber band at the preachers face and hit him as the preacher just kept on reading and I couldn't help but snicker about it again.

Then Mike got up and did it all over again,.. and I think it was the 4th time that he shot the rubber band at the preacher and it ricocheted off of his forehead right onto the table in front of him and the preacher took that opportunity to grab the rubber band and just kept on reading.

I don't remember anything at all about what that preacher was reading. I don't think I was even listening. And I haven't been to Church ever since that day. I have nothing against them,.. Church's,.. I've just never had an interest in going to one myself. Just never sounded like my kind of thing.

Getting back to a movie of my life,... Ray Liotta's name came to mind today for no reason really. And he kind of looks like the cop that hand cuffed me that I was talking about in yesterdays dailies,.. and I thought,.. he could play that part well.

Then I thought,... Kurt Russel kind of looks like the other cop that was there,... and he could easily play that cop roll. Kurt's cop was good cop,... friendly, smiling and talkative. Rays cop was bad cop,.. asked me a couple questions,... then said,... sh_t,... as if he don't believe in me,.. and went into the hand cuffing me routine.

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

So, the subject of Godly type stuff has been like the topic to be writing about lately in my mind. And I'd have to say that,... I was hesitant when I first started writing about it a couple days ago. But the reason I went ahead with it is because "I know that it's real". Also,... our God has the ability to tell me "no" in my mind and I haven't got any of that.

Reasons that I know that it is real: Well,.. I think I'll start this time with a time in my life at age 24. My life completely changed from being great to having a problem life. I knew it the moment it happened one night in the Red Onion bar & restaurant. Boom,.. I felt it in my mind,... the want in me was back,.. and it was like my face was melting. My facial expressions went from having no problems to "I cant help but show problems in my face".

Then,.. it wasn't long,.. maybe a few months later,.. I was lying in bed having problems with life and I felt something vibrate into my brain. I believe that that is when our God allowed the jealous God into my brain,.. and it's like all my life I haven't had him in me up until then.

I didn't think much of anything about it at the time it happened though,.. and my lousy life just went on. The main thing I remember happening after that was,...all of a sudden,.. anytime that I woke up from sleep,... I would be drooling out of my mouth.

The drooling went away months later,.. but lousy life didn't. Life changed big time for me after age 23,.. even my looks were different. I forgot lots of things about my life,.. old memories seemed gone. I remember one day I was trying to change the brakes on a vehicle,.. and I couldn't even do it correctly,.. like I didn't even know how anymore. And I remember crying that day due to what I thought of life and how life was for me.

One thing about Godly stuff in my life,.. it had been quite hush hush through my first,... maybe 26 years of life. One of the things I heard when I was a kid happened the very first time I ever showed jealousy,... and my brain goes: "That's jealousy,... that's wrong". And I proceeded to live my life that way. But it wasn't like I just heard our God or something. It was like what I heard went away and the only thing that stayed was living my life not being jealous. It's like the few things that I did hear from our God would go away like they never happened and I wouldn't think nothin of it except for what ever thoughts I had about it on that day.

There was a time in my 20's,.. I may of been near 23 years old,.. that I remember a woman I was working for asked me if I believed in God,.. and I told her "no,.. I don't". I just didn't really have a reason to believe in God at the time.

Later on in life,.. maybe around my 26 year or so,... I was working on the Stater Brothers Warehouse spraying ceilings up high on a scissor lift,... and I was remembering a time when I was a kid where I was playing basketball in my front yard and I was day dreaming that all the cars that went by,.. the people in them and my neighbors too were all watching me and thinking,.. "man that kids good",.. man,... he's really good,... then at one point my brain goes: "you wanna be the best?",... I thought,.. "yeah",.. then said "yeah",.. and got no reply the rest of the day as the thoughts eventually vanished.

So getting back to when I was up on that scissor lift thinking about that memory,... all of a sudden my brain goes "you wanna be the best?,... and then right after it,... my brain goes,.. "you wanna be the best?". The second one came in quick and seemed angry. And that was the first time I noticed that there seems to be 2 Gods in me. I didn't think "Gods" at the time though,.. I thought "there are 2".

Sometime after that happened eventually it came time where it seemed like what I needed to do was fast. Go without food and drinks and everything. I was unsure about it and thought "I don't know if this something that I should be doing". It seemed like it wasn't something that I should be doing. So when it came to the day when I did start fasting,... I told my brain "I'm going to need help with this". It was because I didn't think it was something that I needed to do.

So what happened was,... the first time I looked up out of bed and lit a cigarette,... God actually turned my head to where I was looking directly at the ash tray. And it was as if I needed to put it out. And it happened with food too. And it happened pretty often. And that was how I learned that fasting was something that I needed to do.

Now,.. I believe that our God showing he's/she's real to us in some of these ways that I've mentioned above are things that he can do for anybody if he has a reason to. For 2 reasons,... one was because when I was up on that scissor lift my life was just like everybody elses here (our God under the Jealous God so to speak).

The second reason is because one of the very last times I fasted,.. the cop that hand cuffed me for fasting,.. I believe that our God showed him something. What happened was,... the cop copped a little attitude,.. turned me around and put both my hands behind me and together to hand cuff me,.. then someone took control of his hands and pulled my arms up high in front of his face and made a cross with my arms. I know that the cop knew something was going on because when I pulled my arms back down,.. he goes,.. "no,.. don't do anything" in more of a nice tone of voice.

He seemed to have a funny attitude as he dropped me off at the hospital,.. like he didn't like learning that about me.

But I think I've noticed other times when our God may of stepped in for a moment in other peoples lives. One time I'm thinking of was on the Jamie Fox show. Jamie had this thought come to mind as he said it. He thought and said "you are my dog". Then he thought about it and agreed with the thought and said again like he means it this time,.. "you are my dog". That thought he had looked like it could of been planted there by our God to me.

Another time I thought I heard a time when our God may of stepped in for a moment was on the Mark & Brian radio show when Brian was asked if he knew the definition to the word "OK",... and he spit it right out sounding like an exact copy of whats in the dictionary.

And another time was on the show Dawsons Creek when Dawson and the short curly haired girl,.. (I don't remember her name and I don't remember if her hair was curly either),... but they were both having a conversation when all of a sudden both of them were speaking in big words that they may not of even knew the definitions of. To me it seemed like they may of had to play that tape over again to see just what it was that they said. (I know our God can do that because he has done it to me before).

Now,.. I don't know if I'm right about the last 3,.. but I know that the cop one was real. God took control of him,.. it wasn't me moving my arms into a cross. It reminds me of the first time I ever got into a fight. God took control of me completely,.. I couldn't move a muscle,.. I was fighting inside myself to try to fight,.. but God fought for me making it look like I was doing OK in the fight for my friends then in the end I got frustrated trying to fight when I couldn't and started crying and that was the end of the fight.

I didn't feel a thing from what the other guy was doing to me,.. and I've always imagined that "he probably didn't feel a thing from me either". I mean,.. one moment I was up on him punching his face as he was under me on the ground and the next moment he was doing the same to me. I think we rolled around like that about 3 times before I started crying. And I think that was either my 1st or 2nd grade in school.

After proof reading that part,.. God was doing the punching for me (and everything else too except for the crying part),.. so I would imagine that the kid I was fighting didn't feel a thing either. (As if the punches from me were very soft).

Well,.. Irene just offered to loan me her vehicle so it looks like I get to go and upload my dailies today. Their new Ford Explorer sure is a nice running vehicle. It's zippy like and seems to have lots of power. I'm not crazy over the seat belt warning device constantly sounding off,.. and I think I'll take this time to say that,.. you know,.. I don't mind wearing the bottom strap of a seat belt. It's that upper strap that I don't like at all.